Happiness :)

It took me few minutes to decide whether I should blog or to sleep now so I can get up earlier tomorrow to continue my final project. And when you're reading this it means I'd choose to blog lol

I got some fb msg recently from different people, good friends, friends, friend's friends, or some fb friends who I never met before. The msg are all about getting positive vibes from me, about the problems that they face in life. To be honest, I was happy when people pm me, because I felt trusted. From relationship problems to studies or sometimes they didn't let me know about what was the problem.

Often during my trips or in my daily life, strangers or customers ask me: why do you smile all the times? My answer will always be: because I'm happy all the times! *and whenever they ask me about this only I realize: eh I was smiling, I didn't even notice it lol* Months ago when I was in Liverpool, me and BX were standing quietly to listen to a street artist singing "imagine" and when we were about to leave, he ask me if I can help him to look after his guitar and all the equipments so he can go to the toilet, i remember he look into my eyes and said: you look trusted girl. (I was actually about to cry lol idk why) but when a stranger tell you you look trusted, it's kind of like a compliment! And that makes me believe that your apperence is depends on your attitude and personality. 面由心生

Some of my friends say I'm full of positive vibes, I'm like a positive vibes producer. But I'm not happy all the times, I feel sad, feel guilt, feel angry, and sometimes I feel dulan!  *need to mention, I'm a person who will always try to look at your good no matter how many people gossip you behind, but sometimes when I need to face some stupid people who alway like to bring people down, I won't fake a smile in front of them, I'm that kind of "when I hate you you'll definitely know it" person, sorry I know its childish but I just can't 🙄 

I wasn't so optimistic especially the years after my dad pass away, until I met some of my really good friends :) I was outgoing and straight forward like now, but the words I used were often hurt people and brought them down. Then I realize I was actually hurting people mentally, stand in their shoes and think what if someone hurt me with their words? Of course I won't be happy too! So I started to keep my mouth shut, talk less and be a listener.

The reason for writing this is because I know, I know everyone has tough time in their life, nobody has a perfectly happily life which they wish to. Takes everything as an experience in life, you won't know what is happy without sad. You won't grow without the tough times, but no matter how hard is it just tell yourself don't lost hope, I know there are some mean people in life who always like to make you feel bad bout yourself, but! Just let them be, focus on improving yourself than others' opinions, it was just their opinions not the reality. Focus on the positive things that you love instead of the people or things that make you feel bad, I like the quote, "be like sunflower, keep your face to the sunshine and you cannot see a shadow"

What you get is what you give, the more you feel down the more you need to do something good and positive :) I believe you will feel happy too when you do something good or when you help somebody else. Also if you don't like to be judged, try not to judge people too! When you're judging someone you're actually focusing on the negative things, the more you judge them the more you'll focus on their mistake whenever you see them and believe me that will make you feel even more negative.

Smile.
Smile to everyone, eventhough you feel like you really can't, but try! Smile is a free gift, everyone likes it! Whenever I feel really tired working in the cafe after my class, if someone smiles to me and say "thank you, I know it was a long day right" I feel warm I feel loved and I feel happy! Remember its not smile when you're happy, but smile to make yourself happy. Happiness will look for you after you smile.

Be gratitude.
Write down the name of the people you love or the people who make you feel loved. I wrote it down in my notebook, actually it was for me to remember how many postcards I wanted to get when I travel haha! but when I look at the names, all the happy memories will just appear and I feel my life wasn't wasted, I always believe all the happy memories will flashed back before we die, and the memories are like the treasures along your life journey, the faces that you love the moments that make your heart beats faster. Collect moments, not things!

Let go.
Be with someone who cheer you up and bring positive vibes to you! Learn how to say no to people who bring you down, remember nobody has the power to bring you down unless you give them the chance to, and I know right people who can hurt you are always the close friends, you get hurt because you care about their words. If someone hurts you again and again, leave them no matter how hard is it. Learn to be a bit selfish so that you can leave the negative things behind and pursue for your own happiness! Life's too short to be with people who steal your happiness, you can either stuck in the negative situation for a long period or take a deep breathe and let go, make a decision that can make you feel happy again after all these heart broken.

Life is beautiful :)